inmylate20s

untitled ode

2012-01-16T10:15:00.000-08:00

Those past few days I discovered a new unknown activity
She, for all the creations implied, can be called muse
But I prefer to find other intimate names refering to her beauty
She, for all, the words I sent her, could feel amused
But she prefers to intertwine our feelings and make it so different than normalcy
She,for all my lascivious feelings, should feel ashamed
But she prefers to greet all of them and make me feel horny
I, for my spinning imagination, feel speechless when facing her with my heart inflamed
But I prefer to talk nonsense instead and that is not so crazy
Because,she,for all my chatting, knows my meaning
But she prefers to tease me with her answers
I, for all my jealousy and envy, am closed to explode
But she prefers to ask me for an ode....

and i say amen..

merci :) viny...

2011-12-29T09:12:00.000-08:00

Blur:
Out of the wind came the charming blow of her,
I was not sure whether these words were uttered,
But I heard them like a dangerous flower;
So beautiful and now fluttered.

They ran away without a goodbye
My imagination suddenly went dry,
While my face became ripe

All those things that must untie,
Before I realize, just a guy
That s all I am, no pride to pipe

She is a was and her smile is unforgivable
Her eyes are saying it in another way,
Nevertheless no one can gamble
On a future day without Mei …
that s not really conventional but anyway

(eve of new year's eve'11)
pressie!

sol ... solana

2011-07-05T02:48:00.000-07:00

dearest sol,

gracias for bringing me up here.
for all the vino that i had, gallons of beers that i drank,
sun burnt on my nose, reddish mark on my back.
whispers that i never had before,
phrase that makes me wanna dance.

sol a sol a sol .. beautiful as simple as do re mi
lighter, lighter than air.
bello...

and he speaks

2011-06-27T03:42:00.000-07:00

and he smiled at me.. and talking to me trough all the notes that he blew.
amazing!
no, i speak no spanish, but i do understand what you say senor. muchos gracias

mi cherie..

2011-05-01T10:40:00.001-07:00

moi!

*kiss kiss

thank you leslie..

2011-03-30T10:47:00.000-07:00

it glares at me.. :)
for real

Hear it like a pounce upon a peak
Look at what the light did now
Bear it like a bounce upon the beak
Look at what the light did now
Land and water and bird or beast
Look at what the light did now
Shiny little band or golden fleece
Look at what the light did now

(Chorus): Look at what the light did now

In my will I went 'till it's wasted
Look at what the light did now
Taste the taste I taste 'till it's tasted
Look at what the light did now
Bought it like a boast that burly beaming
Look at what the light did now
Got it like a ghost that girly gleaming
Look at what the light did now

Like a dead tree that's dry and leaving
Look at what the light did now
Play it on me with grief and grieving
Look at what the light did now
I would finally fall to pieces
Look at what the light did now
We'll meet soon as newphew's nieces
Look at what the light did now

a minute on saturday

2011-03-05T06:56:00.000-08:00

and when the sky is blue and the sun is glaring at you,
let's hit this place!
move your hip and tip your toes
smell the breeze,
and feel the wave

one minute you are able to stand,
you feel you are beyond
no matter bruised that painted in your face
or scars addin to your skin

for that one minute..

one of these days..

2011-02-27T09:58:00.001-08:00

too much sun? no?
^__^

it is clear,....
as clear as the sky

como gracias guapo...

2011-01-08T11:09:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EIZkCSfiP9o

and i smile... so widely, until my cheek hurts
ah....
liiii liiiii

flippin for new year!

2011-01-01T12:07:00.000-08:00

Ginger rogers,

here i come to your path! :P ( grin )
amen..

that's a beginning
let's find my fred astaire

colliding..

2010-12-27T07:48:00.000-08:00

so here we go..

1 2 3 4

first? no...that's the second one

2010-10-23T09:59:00.000-07:00

second time i got hit!
feels like the first time,
thought i might just drop dead when i stood there
i wasn't that shabby though.
checkered shirt for Amy performance,
which i can't even make it.
either no ticket, and no stamina at all
tomorrow should be better.
yea..
tomorrow should be better

lancing lancing

2010-09-02T10:33:00.001-07:00

let's lindy-ing over the weekend
over and over again,
all over again!
do the charleston, like ginger rogers
1 2 3 4, then rock steps 1 2 3
hop in hop out,
suzy q, then fish tails followed by charleston again!

then let's start to hopping in any over day!
outside turn, inside turn
twist twist twist
one two double steps double steps
don't let your frame down! :)

and let the lead show you the way
doing the swing which can make you sway
just close your eyes and let your feet make their own ways,
grasp the music and fly with the notes
du du dam dam
bam be di be di bam

word of wisdom

2010-08-11T12:12:00.000-07:00

No life is a waste, the only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone, and i do agree that life itself is a playground.

so... let's have fun and play!!!!!

found a star there

2010-08-01T12:08:00.001-07:00

just came back from a trip...
and here i got!!!!
hidden treasure,
beyond water...
*besos muchos

2010-07-10T13:37:00.000-07:00

carlsberg's burps,...
arie's therapy mixed with bonfire in your spine.
Sunlight glaring for more than 12 hours,
flowery words spilled from your mouth.
nothing else i can ask.

in 20 days,
goes to 30 days, 60 days,
and i lost the counting.
Mischievous i were,
hilarious i become.
skeptical i wanted to be,
amusive i guarantee.

merci lindyhoppers,
gracias ivy,
and you primo
with all the fairies
buena note world,
with all my gratitude

greeny...

2010-07-09T12:34:00.000-07:00

when you think you got everything you need,
everything that you even ever wanted.
satisfied with all that you feel,
all you've achieved.

until you see the greener side across the road.
thought that you can fly,...but in that greener side,
you can fly even higher, not only that...
you can even dive into the ground, :)

what will you do...
is that real? or it's only greener cuz what you have been seeing all this time just
GRASS

written..

2010-06-05T13:25:00.001-07:00

*was made on Sunday back in 2007 ( march )

me and my little black comedy
It is hillarious,touching story and makes you think while your tears are dropping ( maybe you are laughing until you cry,or you sneeze?well we never know). Yeah,that’s Little miss sunshine in that yellow shiny boots,don’t you think she is super cute?with the round belly and that huge glasses covering her round tiny face? The best part about this movie I think when the director makes character of Dwayne ( Paul Dano),besides Olive, he is another magnet from the movie. His character is magnificent,yet hillarious ( with those ideological stuffs and put Freud’s painting in his room?wahahahahahhaha). Dwayne is a portrayal of how funny life could be,viewing in his ideological mind and his ‘bare’ eyes. His character vividly mocking life and individuals in this time being, how hypocrisy corrupts people’s mind and idea, one tends to become pretentious in so thought can be accepted in society and community. ‘Life is just fucking beauty peagant!’ it’s just another fucking competition, one after another’…hahahahahahaha, and it’s DAMN FUCKING TRUE!

THere is one scene which made me end up with tears,….actually it’s just a simple sentence,…somehow it just stab me right to my right chest,and it’s super deep,until I can’t take it anymore,…

Grandpa ( Alan Arkin): YOu know a Loser is? A Loser is someone who really want to be number 1, but he is too scared to get fail, and in the end he never try.That’s a LOSER

me: ……..( gulp ) hua hua hua hua…….

Facts of life,that’s the message! What is happening in our social life,status in society,who is the better one,everyone wants to be famous and try so hard to be the best. Is that what we want?

What a superb Black Comedy,…hopefully hollywood will come out more with these kinds of works,..

I think it deserves to win Oscar,but who cares about this award stuffs,it’s more about us, the audiences, and how the messages go through to our brain and make us stunned for awhile and pondering about what we have done lately.

DOn’t you think so?

in that box

2010-06-01T11:22:00.001-07:00

ha!
finally i got one for myself!
mine!
^_^

como gracias

2010-05-19T12:05:00.000-07:00

after so long,
there you come!
^___^
thank you!

never lost faith,
it's just there
wait for little bit more
and tarammm..

Prologue

2010-02-26T09:55:00.000-08:00

hi mitch! nice to meet you too... ^___^
and you have bunny ears,hihihihi

and yes, i always have faith...thank you for wrote it in my book, it's a reminder for me.
Let's celebrating LIFE!

in my sleep

2010-02-11T10:40:00.001-08:00

i had a dream,..
it was a sweet dream in an early few hours, yes.. maybe like ermmm 3 to 3 and half hours, but then turned become a blurry dream that i hardly remember, the only thing i remembered that when i tried to wake up i was forcing myself to remember where were i. Where was the place that i laid my head when i jumped into that dream...

feels like walking in that place,and you can see yourself in that dream like watching movie about yourself, but the steps that you take, every steps that you take it just blur..

if i can picture my dream...is something like this...

snap snap snap

2010-01-26T09:11:00.001-08:00

that friday,.. :)
partly cloudy, was hot in the day and quite warm in the evening. Here I snapped!!!

note: fallin in love with hobbies....(that's the best unconditional love)

present for todae

2010-01-17T07:24:00.000-08:00

it's sunny sunday afternoon, when we walked trough this booth... i thought it just purely lego booth, but surprisingly it's lego accessories they are selling ^___^
it's so colorful and these sets of earrings collection immediately caught my attention among all of the rest of the accessories, and here i got for my today present at the ROCK. :P

waiting for the sky fallin down... ^___^

2010-01-10T10:05:00.000-08:00

hmmmm..... see how small i am if you look at the bigger picture of me in your perspective :D

ho ho ho

2010-01-08T04:14:00.000-08:00

was celebratin christmas by myself in botanical garden and givin myself some gifts by capturin what my eyes can reach :P. that's my christmas, and for this fella this is his christmas..

MERRY (belated) X'MAS!!!!!

PS: I knew it's super late, but it's not about the celebration but more into the picture that i took.. :) BROWNISH SANTA in Tanglin road...

EXE + CircuitClub Trackday - Winton Raceway, 23rd May 2009

2009-11-23T12:10:00.000-08:00

I was there!!
see the gal in red jumper, inside the white micra, with black helmet sitting in passenger seat, screaming full of excitement ( oh, i think it's unseen, cuz half of my face is covered by the big helmet).

Thank you Ilas for let me experienced this, it's priceless... something that you will remember for the rest of your life, and you will tell your family, your neighbor, your boss, everyone with the 'element of gloriousness' that you were there and being part of it.

Silas Bonar Andrianto: EXE + CircuitClub Trackday - Winton Raceway, 23rd May 2009

-hopefully i can experience another one, and another one and another one-
amen...

look what i found!

2009-11-14T11:07:00.001-08:00

^_________^
priceless!!!!

PS: i showed it to 'you' first before i placed it here...

on May 2009 in that green land

2009-08-27T08:00:00.000-07:00

i drove from winton to sydney on may!!! Well i didn't drive all along the way, but it was my first longest journey for me as a driver and i drove overseas. The highway was awesome, it's 1000% different from highway in Indonesia, but since i drove at night it was totally dark, you hardly can see anything except the road itself. Silas was telling me earlier that i must be very careful with kangaroos, they might just jump out of no where and they are HUGE.
( even until i left Ausy, i had no chance to see one,hehehehehehe )

It was an AMAZING journey, i was able to drive more than 5 hours ( ^___^ ) in a dark, no kangaroos jumped in front of me, i got a chance to catch billion stars with him, and we slept on the side road! I didn't feel sleepy at all, it was full amusement all along the way, with the GPS, the big trucks and lorries and amazingly smooth road, the stars, and all those tiny little things that if i mention it here it will hurt your eyes( ^___^).it was the best road trip for me! waiting for some more to come.

We arrived in sydney in one piece,errr two pieces i presume :), since it was Silas and me. Silas took over to drive after we rest for a while in the maccas on the way to sydney.

'see, i arrived in one piece, and of course Silas too'

it was an AMAZING road trip... ( tearing )
PS: Waterboy...when will i get a chance to have another road trip with you?

2009-08-26T06:24:00.000-07:00

miracle....
are you up there?
:)
i'll fly and making you my wings!

Aug trip....

2009-08-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

my trial for GX500, :)
what do you think?

As....

2009-08-03T05:51:00.000-07:00

As my head is spinning...seems the whole world around me is just simply stopped. :(
as you asked me to stop everything, as my heart beaten even faster and rejecting.
As i never expect anything, just only being thankful for something called LOVE
So please please please let me try again...
again... just a little bit ...

First trip of his...

2009-07-29T06:11:00.000-07:00

And this is the beauty lays on his view..

what makes my saturday.. :)

2009-07-16T11:55:00.000-07:00

^___^
-i love my sunglasses buoy-

about a buoy.. (waterbuoy)

2009-07-08T06:28:00.001-07:00

behind that glass building
i saw a reflection,
on the small tiny window.
It was those sad eyes,
and glaring colors
hurting my eyes.

Eye catching,eyes-hurting
there he was,
singing the rhythm of life
with the bright light in his smile
curving the world with his eyes
while i'm hymning alleluia.

faith and hope,
there he paints his white page
with love in every single words he typed
Du du dam dam
that's they rhyme.

Thought he was a knight
Cuz he is so bright and shiny,
wearing the armor without being weary,
one day, he found me, peeping on him
trough that tiny window,
Then we were singing the same ballad.

sugar and cheese,
that's our favorite.
end up with cream and coffee,
that's how we spend our days.
with moon river as our appetizers
one two three
here we dance behind that small windows

a short reading for todae

2009-07-08T03:14:00.000-07:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

—I Corinthians 13:4-8a-

and i said... AMEN!

catch of last saturday

2009-06-29T12:02:00.000-07:00

i found "Love letters of great men" in kinokuniya last saturday, started from Sex and the City the movie then on friday i was just googling over this book cuz so far i remember this book in the movie itself is never exist, but thanks to john he compiled it and made it as a book. :)

After seeing the cover and some reviews, i decided to look for the book on Kinokuniya, i wanted to get it for 'him'. For some reasons this book it's about him, maybe cuz he knows how to read poetry, he knows how to make a good poem, and he loves to read too..

Well, ok talking about how i get the book. I went to information counter to ask, but the girl who tried to help me seems not really sure about the book, so she asked me to check in A08-03, it is a poetry section, and the whole shelf of A08 is empty.. :D

Maybe somebody bought the whole shelf 1 minute before i found the shelf it self, :)

So then i just walking around in circle, observing all the possibilities that i might find the book, and walah..they moved the whole shelf of poetry books too the opposite shelf, under 'hobby' ? :)

the cover is different from what i saw online on friday, was thinking to get the real cover ( which is hard cover,... i always like hard cover book...i like the smell of its) but then the information counter told me that they don't have the hard cover one. :(

After flipping the pages until the end of the page...finally..i bought it, a soft cover book, not too thick Love letters of great men.. yay!!!!

-happy reading darling-

PS: this is the hard cover one.. :) didn't manage to take picture with the soft copy one...well i did,but the result is like LAME.. ( me and so called photography skill)

shortish

2009-06-22T08:18:00.000-07:00

hmmm.... short hair...

shall i just cut my hair?

this picture of natalie portman with her hairstyle is very tempting...not trying to copy her, it just i feel like having short hair again, and this picture is sort of 'tickling' me :D.

a short

2009-05-18T12:10:00.001-07:00

Everything comes the other way around, just like rollercoaster moving backwards, :)

will you vomit?

well I don't..it's quite fun actually.

it feels like your heart drops to your womb.

ticklish feelin

then i JUMP!

2009-04-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

JUMP FOR YOUR LIFE

it was,

2009-04-23T12:38:00.001-07:00

That day...( when it just started)

halo sayang...

aku tau kamu gak bakal check facebook selama di indo. jadi makanya aku tulis disini... biar kamu bacanya setelah kamu balik :P

aku cuma mau kasi tau kalo apa pun yg terjadi... aku pasti bakal tepatin janji aku. Aku sekarang lagi nangis gak karuan... maaf sayang... aku tuh bener2 lemah kalo lagi kangen.

tadi dapet sms dari kamu kalo aku jangan sms / telp kamu dulu malem ini... makasi ya udah jujur dan kasi tau aku... aku bener2 harep kamu bisa bahagia. u deserved to be treated with respect and full of love... please never ever let anyone hurt you.... u deserved to be with someone that would wake up every morning, thanking god that he is waking up next to you.

i know you have told me that you like to be hurt in order to feel happy... that might work for you, but i can assure you, being loved is far more effective and will last a lifetime compared to the 'short quick fix' of getting hurt by someone...

before you, she has made me 'feel' abit for a month. altho after that she changed and stopped, but that 'one month' was enough to made me kept on waiting for her... until you came into my life and then you changed me somehow. the impact you have given me in 'one day' has overshadowed what i felt in '1 month' with her.

aku sekarang bisa 100% 'merasa' lagi... bener2 merasa seneng, cemas, bingung, dagdigdug, kangen, sedih, sakit, campur aduk... above all that, aku merasa seneng bisa 'hidup' lagi...

i havent felt this way for a long time. by this way means that i felt extremely happy whenever you are around and extremely miserable when you are not around...

aku sering lupa detail info yg kamu crita ke aku. tapi aku gak akan pernah lupa setiap detik yg aku spend sama kamu... somehow, that was the happiest time for me so far... i somehow feel appreciated and loved.

i dunno what would happen by the time you read this email. you could've gotten back with him or whatever. but nothing matters for me anymore... coz whatever happen in the future and whatever you have decided on... you can always rely on me in bad times (yes i didnt say good times coz you might have others to rely on that case)... for i will never ever turn my back on you. i just want you to know that i have given you the pieces of my heart. which was broken (but its all i got left)... keep it somewhere safe :) whatever happens... and thank you

-me-

PS:i love my little kite girl.

PPS: sorry if i wrote such long essay... its kinda hard to put all this into words... and trust me, i have edited and revised this for few hours...

Beautiful isn't it.....

t-shirt from him

2009-04-22T08:01:00.000-07:00

that's me..... 2 months back, still have the shimmer on my so called dull skin ( ^__^).

PS: do i look like a maid to you? ..... naaaahhhhh

a short

2009-04-10T00:29:00.000-07:00

' i will stop loving you one day'
'why?' cuz how to love you, if you stop loving yourself?'

-words of wisdom on 8th April 2009-

love everywhere..

2009-03-26T05:16:00.000-07:00

Look what i found here!!!!!!
Simply made my day!
:)

PS: Thanks 'womensecret'!

thanks for this...

2009-03-05T03:37:00.000-08:00

'Untitled'

My hope like glaring sun,
my admiration like graceful moon,
my peace like sparkling lake,
my strength like a rock mountain,
my freedom like evening breeze,
and my love like my own heart.
Pieces of me, my one and only....

05-03-2009

For the wedding..

2009-03-02T12:35:00.000-08:00

I got the dress after i had been searching for almost 1 month, and the shoes for about 2 weeks.

This is me in my late 20s and this is what I become so far.

I think my arms are pretty big recently. Don't you think so?

It was like last minute dress, when I had no other choice to choose, and the shoes..darn you don't even know how I struggle to find it.

-sillyme-